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Sunday, May 06, 2007

been up since 3 this morning to sent my sissy off to cambodia.
YAY 5 days without her! what joy :)
maybe i'll start missing her but for now, im enjoying my freedom.

ANW ytd odac cycling.
quite fun. haha don't regret going even tho i think i ran afoul my whole family by staying out so late (mind you, i went home early enough for dinner yet everyone hates me. haha.. quite funny actually)
went ubin again lah this time we were competing on who can kill the most mozzies (do our part for society :) ) the average was 8 per person! they were EVERYWHERE everytime we stopped they'd be zooming ard like omgggg keep moving!
physically it was ok.. not that tiring.. my bike slipped once on moss and i fell on one side of my butt which is aching now. haha other then that there's no other aches.

anw aft that, we wanted to go cath spidey3 but everything was full so we ate dinner and the guys wanted to go play pool... so we all went loh (liting? play pool?!) oh oh zhiheng is a tall piece of shit he's so tall that he jumped and actually managed to get 2 helium balloons for amanda and I! cool... thanks! anw... back to pool. no lah i didn't play.. just watched until i got very bored and my mum was miss calling me like mad so i decided to go home.
eh actually some of the guys can play quite well.
jiang kiat plays with ONE HAND! dunno how he does tt. haha..

hmmm my home is becoming abit of a mad house.
hahah... on the bus with aixin on the way home, i got hung up on twice once by my mum and another by my sister.. since when did my family become such rude ppl? i despise ppl who hang up on others because its just so childish and stupid and it really doesn't solve anything at all. got quite depressed abt it actually cause i don't feel i deserve such treatment.
later when i got home.. i realise my sister wanted to eat out and so i had to reach home early so we cld go out.. and that was why she was so right to be so damn indignant abt it, cause i ruined her pretty plans.

it was totally unfair, no one told me abt dinner plans at all in the first place so why was i being treated like that?! am i supposed to posess some telepathic ability that transfers your thoughts to me?? who do you think you are mann.. you have totally no right to go on about me like that.

actually wanted to bring home the balloon but i let it go on the way home.
figured nothing good would come out of being in a home where nothing is ever discussed but always just brought up and then dismissed as a bid of selfishness or jealousy, conversations are just one sided, miscommunication is blamed only on one person, where parents are always right because, well, because they're never wrong. where only things you did wrong are rmb, where no one is ever praised for anything, where i get killed for losing a pe shirt that cost 8 bucks while my brother can spent 5000 bucks in 2 mths in aussie studying but its 'not his fault'.
its funny how my mum always long for a 'perfect' family where everyone sits down for dinner and tells each other abt their day when she practically is raving mad everytime we say smth she doesn't like to hear.

she doesn't understand that i can be completely dishonest and tell her i had a lovely day in school and all the teachers simply adore me (haha but ironically, she wouldn't believe it either if i told her that) and by telling her school sucks bad, im just really speaking my mind (family shld be honest with each other, right?)
what does she want from me????
it seems everything i do is always wrong wrong wrong.
scream scream scream, thats all she can contribute to her idea of 'perfect' family.
its the epitomy of perfection, really.

sometimes i really feel like running away...
at least the balloon had a go.
HAIIII.

anywayyyyy..... life goes on.
hot guy!

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clap for Topher Grace!
argh/ hahaha...

and and however horrible my home can get, the view from the HOUSE is amazing.
look at that sunset!

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